Does she want to know? The better question, Lydia thinks, is if knowing is a good idea. Knowing makes it real. Knowing means she'll be losing a son or a daughter if this really doesn't work. That there'll be names thrown around and themes picked out, all to be scrapped. That she'll have a picture in her head of this child that she'll never get to see.

...But will any of those things not be there if she doesn't know? A quick glance at her husband tells her that no. It won't be any different, even if she says no right now.

"Yes. I want to."